I see memes and stuff about people doing this and I genuinely don’t understand the reason behind it
I’m trying to decide between facing another day or ending it all. Some days it takes a little more thought to justify getting up.
With a little bit of practice you can save time by doing them simultaneously! You haven’t truly lived until you’ve started at a wall for 20 minutes during despair breakfast
Boot up
I need some time to review the life choices that led me to this.
3/10, do not recommend
Review complete, the next 19 minutes will be spent processing existential dread.
I’m sometimes tired when I awake, if I didn’t get enough sleep the night before. Also, it’s kind of like the ADHD thing when you know you should do stuff, but you just sit there consciously doing nothing, although you don’t want to be. That also sometimes happens for a bit until I finally start doing stuff.
My brain and body don’t immediately activate when I wake up.
Think of it like when you had to wait several minutes for Windows 98 to boot from a slow mechanical HDD platter lol!!
I have envied people who are fully aware and alert and ready when they wake up.
For me, it takes longer than a few minutes
depression for me
I usually sleep so deep that after I wake up I’m still semi-conscious for some time and i’m afraid that if i stand up i might land on my face. All gears are definitely not working right away.
The other ten minutes is just existential dread.
Fighting that urge to lay back down
Why, what do you do?
Sometimes you just take it all in that this is your life, this is your surroundings, and this is where you’ll be for the foreseeable future, just before you get up, to work, eat, and sleep.
“Ah fuck I’m still here”
Powering through the horror takes time.
Cozy
Waiting for my back to slowly compress back into place so I can move again lol. Am old.
