

Yes. I find anime-style erotic content to be super weird and gross. I think people who fawn over drawings of cartoons are suffering from and / or burying mental health disorders.
I don’t think your issue is with AI though. You seem to have some other issues that, outside of professional counseling, may be helped by changing some of your lifestyle choices and avoiding the internet. I mean, there are plenty of horrors in this world (war / famine), but the world itself (the one we call reality) is not a horror; certainly not one with corpses readily on display.
You seem troubled in a lost-control-of-your-addiction sort of way. “Waking up” is a choice you have.
If you are of the belief that AI and anime-style erotica are a reality you are unable to escape, you have a very long way to go my friend.