Oh my gosh, thank you for the reply. I feel that you were able to read my incoherent post and saw my soul. Would you mind either explaining or linking/recommending a place to further understand the last paragraph?

That’s in my wheelhouse, thanks for your input. It’s going in my book.

I did end up start writing in the hundreds of the notebooks I have and this year has been dedicated to my mental health. Definitely a good tool to help bring things up to my therapist.