I’m Ghoulia (obviously; sensitive nerds who understand the importance of a good head, in more ways than one). But do feel like I have a Cleo rising cuz I am a bit of a demon twink (I’m working on it, and by that I mean that I’m trying to become a twunk so that I can be worse). What about you guys?

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    my experiences have taught me that an overwhelming majority fo people mimic the behavior that they’ve seen others perform (and mostly from tv/movies) and this conclusion gets reinforced every time an “A-list” bottom rejects me at first and then later invites me in when their expectations and/or selectiveness inevitably leaves them wanting. the amount of time it takes for this to happen varies from person to person and the experience (or lack thereof) they’re having at the moment, but it always eventually comes.

    i’ve also learned that we’re taught to form expectations around things like romance and classifications of people (ie E-list, C-list, hot) that only have surface level at best relationship to reality, but we’re still conditioned to HEAVILY prize nonetheless. like a ruling class, there certainly are people who benefit from these expectations, but it’s as much luck as it is effort (if not more so).

    it also took years of therapy for me to realize all this after also mimicking the kind of partnering we’re all conditioned to expect from ourselves and others and i doubt very much that i would have had any of these realizations if my mind and body had the same responses/reactions that most people seem to have from social and physical interactions.

    Does El Calientador correspond to Heath Burns in English?

    it literally translates to heater, but a specific or favorite one (or atleast it does in mexican border spanish from the 1950/60’s) and your translation is accurate in other spanish variations and also because you can get burned if you don’t take common sense precaution with it, but you can get warmth from it if you need or need it. i feel that this describes me.