Please speak to a counsellor, and move out of your mothers house. Mass murder almost always starts with hurting the womem in your home

if the only thing stopping you from hurting people is legality and morality you need help

I don’t plan to kill him but I have a frame already picked out for my fathers obituary.

I am familiar with a child abuse victim who feels this way. Not like actively seeking it out, but they wouldn’t regret it much if it came to that point.

But I’m not personally qualified to comment on it. If it’s becoming more than a passing thought and starting to bother you in everyday life or causing actively homicidal thoughts, it could be a good time to seek professional help before it gets you into trouble.

I do really dislike my mother (for valid reasons), but I don’t want to kill anybody. That would make me feel sick

love isn’t the opposite of hate, apathy is. If you truly despise her, cut off contact, she is your mother and this will cause her profound pain. I’m assuming you’re pretty young to be feeling this way, whatever the problem is, you will understand it and its roots better as you get older. One day you might think about her differently as you understand her more. There’s always a reason why broken people do broken things. Good luck and don’t do anything dumb